Naol DenkoPoems

Ambivalence

Talking to my mother about faith,

But my mind is numb from all the pain…

Why me I question?

Reality always feel fiction.

To differentiate what is true and false

Is like an impossible mission.

But will I be a survivor?

Will I succeed despite the difficulties?

Will faith give me peace?

Or will it be a façade to display?

...

But I talked to my mother about faith.

I still feel ambivalence in my heart

Like I'm on the fence throwing a dart.

Aiming at this balloon of hope I envision

Will I hit it or will it ascend?

Will I die or will I live?

I will never truly know,

Because life as I know goes before you go.